Huh, God is big!

Can I say this?  God is becoming bigger to me than I ever thought possible!  No one understands me!  I think the biggest challenge about me is that no one really understands me and frankly, i don't I understand myself.   I'm sure if we were to ask people about me, there would be quite a range of answers and some I wouldn't even want to know, but here is where I am today, He understands me through and through friends, that is all that matters to me.  No no no, for real!  He understands me so much so that He keeps pushing through my darkness to let His light shine and guess what happens to darkness when light shines?  It runs away.  Here is the most amazing part, it isn't anything that I am doing, but it is Him shining His light in my life because that is who He is and because of that, He is becoming bigger to me than I ever thought possible!  I love Jesus more than ever and today I realized that my love for Him is still at the base of the mountain, and that I haven't even begin to journey up toward His peak...mind blown.  There is so much more for me and we, to experience about the depth of God's love for us.  Don't ever stop going after the heart of Jesus...please please please.

So my only commitment to 2019 was to stay committed to reading His Word and, you ready?  Poetry!  Haha, don't laugh, I know I am not your poetry type person but I want to both read and write poetry this year.  So can I share with you my first stab at poetry?   I am not sure if it even constitutes as poetry, but it's my blog!!!

I am drowning in a sea of pity, and if something doesn't happen soon, i might drown.  I am below the water and it is dark, cold, and lonely.  I try and take a deep breath but my body just won't embrace it.  My heartbeat is fast, as if on the next beat it might leap out of my chest.  I am broken and overwhelmed.   And with whatever I can muster up in my voice, I yell "help, deliever me.!"

Wait, is that a glimmer of light that I see?  I feel warmth, but how?  Is my heartbeat slowing down, but why?  I get a feeling I'm not alone, but what?  Is that a whisper I hear?  The Presence is so close that I can feel the hair on my neck stand straight up.  And in a crackling voice I call out, "who are you?"  

"It is I, your Deliverance!"  It is I, your Warmth!"  It is I, your Light!"  It is I, your Companion!"  It is I, your Provider!"  "It is I, your Jesus!"  "Come to Me and I will carry you...to the shore and beyond, Come!"

Friend, He DOES understand me and that is why He came!  He came for me and He came for  you.  But will you let Him carry you?  It is your choice.  He is carrying me!!!